Monday, August 10, 2009

There's No Room for 'Try'

I'm up this morning, earlier than I would've liked to have been, bright eyed, bushy tailed and very deep in thought. What am I thinking about? Greatness.

I'm thinking about my own greatness, that it's in me, that I'm using some of it but not all of it, that I'm kind of scared of it and, yet, that I want to channel it for good... How best can I do that?

Well that answer really scares me because every time I ask that question, I get the SAME EXACT ANSWERS... and then comes the thought "Me? Who? How? When? Why?"

And then I get nothing... No answer, no angelic response, no yellow brick road, just silence.

I know what I have to do. I know what it's going to take. I know that it's in me to do it... and I'm still scared.

Here's where I have to take my own success advice, right? Feel the fear and do it anyway. Truth be told, taking a risk has never been my dilemma; staying the course has been. Rejection is never what's gotten to me in the past; doubt always has been and, for the very first time in my life, I don't care so much about the doubt. I no longer have the luxury of not staying the course.

I know what I have to do and I'm now willing to be here as long as it takes to get it done... and I'm still scared. Ahh, the beauty of being alive, to feel what we feel and still keep it moving!

As the wise Yoda has said, "Do or do not. There is no try!"

2 comments:

Kelly said...

Kassandra, I feel that God and the universe led me to find you this morning! I am 48 yrs old, have been married for 28 yrs and about 2 weeks ago I finally admitted to myself and my husband that I haven't been happy or been "in love with him" for the last 20 yrs. I love him, he is a good man...just not good for me! We have a 26 yr old married daughter and a 13 yr old son who has been struggling the last 2 yrs as 2 yrs ago we moved with my husbands job for the 14th time. Since then my son has been diagnosed with ADHD and now depression. He is finally doing better, so one worry is to make sure that he continues to do well and not let my issues disrupt him. My struggle is being "the good girl" and doing what would make everyone else happy and not disappoint everyone else. I have been trying to figure this all out with a heavy heart. Some of my worries also involve the everyday...job, insurance, retirement plan...all of the things that I never thought about doing for myself. Very scary, but I don't want those things to keep me somewhere that I maybe don't belong anymore. I did get long winded...I'm sorry about that. I am just so happy and blessed to have found you through my e-mail from Hay House for Dr. Wayne Dyer, which led me to his Twitter which led me to you...I am here for a reason and I can't wait to see what unfolds for me. Thank you for listening and I will be following you to hear what you say. Thank you. Peace & blessings to you.
Kelly

Khiparker said...

Kassandra,
Oh my goodness, I have been waiting forever for your return to blog land. I pray that all is well with you. I'll be checking in regularly for my dose of inspiration.

Khi..